I’m Afraid of Forgetting
Originally Written 12/9/23
I’m afraid of forgetting
That feeling when we first met
How I could have kissed you for the rest of my life
Held your hand through to the end of days
Were we two people just dealing with the collective trauma?
Or did we really love each other?
I’m afraid of forgetting
What your pot roast tastes like
The way you’d rush to me after creating something in your studio
Sitting at the kitchen table painting while the sounds of your craft filled the room
Feeling so proud to call you mine
I’m afraid of forgetting
The way our children laughed together
Being at baseball games on Saturday’s
Walks by the creek with the dog
Decorating Christmas trees together
What it felt like to have my own family again.
It was taken from me once before
Only to gain it back
Different — but still mine
Until it wasn’t.
